Something I have often dealt with, and I know many on the spiritual path do as well, is the notion of not being good enough. There is a tendency to measure ourselves against some perfectionist ideal, and we are always left with the sense we have been measured and found wanting. Now, as travellers, we know we are lookng to attain a higher ideal, a higher level of being, but there is a difference between growth and personal brow-beating.
I decided to share this with you all, as I have been experiencing this to a high degree the past couple of days. I have been working through a conflict within. One one hand, I enjoy sharing all this, yet there is an inner voice that says, “Who are you to tell anyone about spirituality? You fall short of it yourself!” Have any of you had similar inner conflicts?
Through much work, I have come to this conclusion. Yes, I am not perfect, and I am happy that I may not perfect, spiritually or otherwise. I rejoice in that now, because that means I can share with you genuinely, and help from my true Self, the Self God created, not the false one with the mask that I created. Does that make sense?
Now is this all gone for good? I doubt it. It will resurface time and again in different ways, through different aspects. Such is the path of growth, yes?
What was also very helpful to me was sharing this struggle with a spiritual sister who listnened without any judgement, just love and concern. Indeed, this can go a long way. If you have someone like this in your life, I urge you to talk to them. If not, remember, to go through your inner work WITHOUT negatively judging yourself.
Thank you for letting me share this with you. I hope it is as helpful to you as it was to me to share it.
Tapping set up phrase:
“Even though I am not perfect, I choose to embrace my imperfection with joy and gratitude!”
